On a Journey of the Soul

Literally just had a mental breakdown at work.

Started balling my eyes out because of how stressful this past work week was and today topped it off as the worst, most stressful day I think I’ve ever had at this job.

Awful. Day.

So here’s the deal.

Whenever I date a guy, or whenever a guy becomes my boyfriend, I’m used to becoming best friends with that guy, and then his friends all become my really good friends. Literally, that’s happened with every guy I’ve been with or dated, and I love it. Except this time, that’s not happening and it annoys the shit out of me.

As hard as I’ve tried to create a “best friend” bond between me and my boyfriend, it’s not happening. We are just very different, and so I’m just gonna give up on that. And as far as his friends becoming my friends…yeah, no. His friends are a bunch of retards that just like to get drunk all the time, go to the bars EVERY FREAKIN WEEKEND (like there’s nothing else to do, but oh wait, there is!) and they are all full of drama. Not exactly the type of people I like to become friends with.

So that leaves me with one boyfriend, who I don’t have a friendship bond with at all, and one best friend who is usually busy with work, school, working out, hanging out with her boyfriend and his friends, or something else.

So what’s my life like? I’m CONSTANTLY sitting at home bored out of my mind. It is driving me crazy. I need to somehow find a new group of friends that will want to hang out with me cause I’m over spending so much time by myself.

God, how I miss the days when I had a boyfriend that was my best friend and a solid group of 5 best friends to hang out with all the time. No joke, the best days of my life. And looking back on it now, I think I took some of those days for granted.

Now to go back to being bored at my 13 hour work shift today. Ugh.

exit the womb they said

life will be great they said

(Source: isunova, via emotional-dreams)

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